It really is right in front of me, nothing should be wrong. It’s just me over thinking and not being able to let my guard down :r I’m letting my past interfere with my present and future. I know it’l change with time, hell i’ve got the perfect girl and a lot of things to be grateful for, but with so much shit that’s happened to me, can you blame me for being so scared?
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Anonymous asked: Nothing is wrong with you, beautiful. You'll be happy soon enough. Maybe it's right in front of you and you just can't see it clearly. |
I am a terrible human being. My whole life i’ve complained that no ones ever made me happy and that being alone was the only option. When I find something good, i’m too afraid that it’s not going to last. I ask myself “Do I deserve to be happy?” and no I don’t think I deserve anything. How I wish I could forget my baggage, but that’s not something easily let go. I always fix myself on the negative and push everyone away. It’s like my nature to push people away when I get too attached before I get hurt but I always do anyways. Everyone leaves. Everyone gives up on me. I just want to be happy, truly happy. I just hope one day, I can be.
What the hell is wrong with me…
